Not letting the "Fear of the Unknown" cripple me!

An e-mail that I sent out to family regarding Evan.
I thought you might want to read exactly what it is we are going to be evulated for on thursday. Please keep us in your prayers thursday...there is no easy way to walk into this! It's downright terrifying to have to even consider that you might have to put your child through anything! Just ignoring it, has been the only way I/we have managed to get through the last 4 weeks without dwelling on the "what if's". Trying to stay as busy as possible this week to keep my mind off it.
Four weeks ago, I took Evan for his 18 month Dr appt. Well to get straight to the point, he has a condition called Hydrocele, and it basically means he has fluid on his testicle that should not be there. Although it is not always swollen or inflated, as it was that day, it could indicate an underlying problem or more commonly, the need for a surgical repair to close it. You can Google this, and come up with a whole bunch of stuff that will freak you out, but I wouldn't suggest doing it! The short end of it is that, as many as half of little boys are born with an opening that hasn't closed and it allows fluid to pass through, resulting in a fluid build up and a swollen testicle. Most will close up by a year, Evan's didn't. So, on June 30 @ 2:00 we are headed to Penn State Children's Hospital in Hershey to see a pediatric surgeon. (yep when I heard the Dr. say Evan followed by Pediatric surgeon in the same sentence, my heart felt like it was going to pop out of my chest too!!)
There is SO much information out there....but we are making a choice not to focus on ANY of it, until we see that Doctor in Hershey. We aren't even going to talk about it, until we know more! His Ped. assured this worried Mama that they will not do anything invasive or otherwise on that day. He is simply going in to be evaluated. We don't want to alarm anyone, but we just wanted to let you know so that you might be in prayer for Evan before we head to that appt. You can join with us by praying that the opening closes and that any/and all resulting issues or underlying problems, self correct before we get there!!! Please Lord let this be the case and let us close the book on this as quickly as possible!!! Also for Josh & I, or me in particular, to remain calm and not dwell on it!! It's scary to think about, that's why we aren't. We know that God is in control - just a little hard to stay calm when it's your child they are talking about!! Thank you Lord for entrusting us with Evan and for the joy that he brings into our lives!